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The present

"We want a whole race perpetually in pursuit of the rainbow's end, never honest, nor kind, nor happy now, but always using as mere fuel wherewith to heap the altar of the future every real gift which is offered in the Present."

Learn from the past, live in the present, plan for the future...but live in the present.

Where will I be next year? In five years? Will I have a job? A family? These are the kind of thoughts that, if taken too seriously or too far, can distract me from "the present voice of conscience, bearing the present cross, receiving the present grace, giving thanks for the present pleasure."

We often fear to live in the present. The words "eat, drink, and be merry" make us nervous about feeling too comfortable enjoying the pleasures (and pains) of now. Upon further pondering, it seems to me that enjoying the now is exactly what we should be doing. While the idea of eating, drinking, and being merry carries negative connotations, let us no…

It's simple

Who seeks for heaven alone to save his soul,
May keep the path, but will not reach the goal;
While he who walks in love may wander far,
Yet God will bring him where the blessed are.
--Henry Van Dyke
A friend of our family gave us an interesting gift this Christmas--a copy of Henry Van Dyke's book The Mansion. (Read it here.) Reading this story, along with another of Van Dyke's books, The Story of the Other Wise Man, has put me into a rather ponderous mood.

Under the influence of these inspired stories, I cannot help but feel that life, beneath its facade of complexity, is painfully simple. Have I done any good in the world today? If not, I have failed indeed.

I was recently taught the importance of introducing order into my life in areas where chaos currently reigns. In addition to meaningful prayer and searching the scriptures, my bishop taught that anonymously serving others for a few minutes each day is critical to removing chaos and establishing order.

It's true.


Things that should not be rushed

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The Gift

The gift to feel another’s pain
Is not a gift that brings you gain.
It’s not a gift that makes you glad.
If anything you feel quite sad,
While sitting there you listen well
As the person tells his tale
Of valiant struggles, dismal chances--
Overwhelming circumstances.
The twists and turns and plots untold
Prick heart and soul as they unfold,
And soon you cannot bear to hear
More words from him whom you hold dear.
Your eyes tear up, your heart--it throbs,
And deep inside you feel a sob.
Perhaps the part that stings the most--
The part that haunts you like a ghost--
Is knowing that despite your care
And wishing for his load to share,
You cannot do a single thing,
But comfort and your friendship bring.
You cannot take the pain away.
You cannot choose to change his ways.
You feel you cannot change his chances--
His overwhelming circumstances.So why the gift--this chance to feel,
If not to alter human will?
If not to give him fighting chances--
And slightly alter circumstances?
You do the best with what you’re given…

Break down the walls

Break down the walls
Pound down the doors
That bottle up your fright
Throw back the shutters
Fling wide the windows
That block the Son's bright light
Open the gates
Clear the way
That leads into your heart
Let go the fear
Forget the pain
That damned you from the start

Take a lesson from Fred

There is probably no better feeling in the world than lifting someone's spirits. Tonight my friends and I visited a care center in Monterey, where we chatted with and sang some songs for the residents. It was incredible to see their eyes light up when someone took an interest in their lives. You could see their happiness beaming as you listened to them talk, even if it didn't make any sense!

As I stayed in the room to pack up my violin, a man named Fred beckoned me over. He was the last resident in the room, and he was sitting alone at a table. He said, "Thank you for coming and lifting our spirits. That's what this life is all about. I'm 88 years old, and that's one thing I can tell you for sure--that's what this life is all about."

I thanked him for his kindness and told him, "I'll take that as wisdom from a wise, wise man!"

Fred is right.

Ocean walk

Today I went for a walk along the coast in Pacific Grove, CA. I took
my new camera along to start practicing my photography. I enjoyed
playing with the aperature and shutter speed. I still need to learn
more about ISO and how all three work together. Here are a few shots
from my walk.

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Learn as you go

It's late, and I should have been in bed long ago, but sometimes I just can't rest until I solve a problem. Today's problem had to do with getting this blog to show up under the address

For the longest time I could not find the appropriate settings with my domain registrar. Then, after a friend helped me with some other fancy Internet issues, I stumbled upon the solution completely by accident.

This just goes to show that there is something to be said for persistence and trying again. Sometimes if you come at a problem long enough from different angles, you can't help but find the solution.

And every time this happens, we gain experience and become just that much smarter.

Death--the destroyer of worlds

I wrote one of my final college papers on nuclear and ballistic missile policy. So of course I had to go see the film Countdown To Zero when I heard it would be playing at the international film festival in town.

Incidentally, it occurred to me tonight why I am still single. It must have something to do with the fact that I'd rather go to a film festival alone than hang out with friends... Oh, well. I saw three great documentaries and am perfectly satisfied with my evening.

You never know with documentaries, but this one turned out to be great. They had their facts right, and it was low on propaganda. The nice thing about nukes is that all you have to do to convince people that it's a good idea to get rid of them is present some facts about the results of using them. Example: upon detonation, everything with a 5-mile radius is absolutely and completely obliterated. Why? Because everything within that radius suddenly becomes hotter than the surface of the sun. You wouldn't …

Good bad days

I actually really appreciate bad days...when they are over.

Here is a picture that over-dramatically depicts how we feel on bad days.

The truth is, though, that there are days when this picture would not be over the top. Sometimes you just feel like conjuring lightning storms, and there's not much you can do about it.

There is no question that bad days are utterly miserable. However, for some reason they tend to yield unusually high amounts of insights and learning. So it's kind of like a lose-win situation (in that order). You put in some time suffering, and you somehow feel better afterward.

Here are some neat nuggets I learned, relearned, or just plain thought about today:
School, work, and play are all really great, but my most important priority is my relationship with Heavenly Father.My relationship with Heavenly Father grows through prayer, study, and interacting with others in meaningful, uplifting ways.Even though it's super important to get out there and interact …


We would rather be ruined than changed;
We would rather die in our dread
Than climb the cross of the moment
And let our illusions die.

~W.H. Auden

This truth blocks my progress more than any external factor I have ever experienced in my life.
I want this idea to always be before me so that I remember to push through the hard times. 
Why do we fear change? Why do we resist reaching our potential? Why are we really our own worst enemy? Why are our "illusions" so precious to us? Why do we procrastinate the best in order to have the good?

Serenity now! You're invited.

This weekend is one I have looked forward to for quite some time. It is the weekend of General Conference! This Saturday and Sunday the building pictured below will be filled to capacity over and over again for a total of 5 sessions of this conference.

Interpreters take note, this conference will be interpreted into 92 languages as it is broadcast worldwide to millions of people! At the last conference, 52 teams worked directly from the Conference Center (Check out the wikipedia article about the building) in Salt Lake City while 39 teams interpreted from remote locations. The building itself is equipped with 58 booths for interpreting. This is truly a huge undertaking for the language teams that will be working at the conference. Here is an article about how they pulled it off last April.

But General Conference excites me for more reasons than the magnitude of its lingual technicalities. It is a time to get practical and spiritual counsel from the men and women whom the Lord has call…

I'm OK

Nothing can describe how I feel right now better than this song can.

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Periodically I need a good reminder that I am different than most people--and that's OK! It's so easy to get caught up in trying to conform. In reality, we are all different, and life is most beautiful when we accentuate our unique strengths and talents, likes and dislikes instead of trying to be like everybody else.

Consider the opening words to this song:

If I could stand beside myself would I see me or maybe someone else?
'Cause it's hard to please most everyone when your spirit's got you on the run.

If my answer to this question ever borders on, "I would see someone other than myself." it's time to reassert myself. (I like classical music, ok people? Deal with it!)

Also, I accidentally had this thought on the way home tonight, and I found it rather amusing. If I could observe myself interacting with people, I'm pretty sure I would annoy myself. Thank goodness I&#…

Translation 101

My experience in translation has been limited mostly to correspondence and unofficial documents at work. I'm learning that it takes a lot more work than I expected to be a good translator. I'm currently enrolled in a translation class and here are some of the basics we've learned so far.

Translation consists of three basic steps: Analyze the source text - What are the main characteristics of this text? Who is the intended audience? What is the subject matter? What is the topic? What is the purpose of this text? What are my translation and research priorities? How is the source text audience different from the target text audience? etc.Translate the text - This part should be easier once you've answered the above questions. However, I'm finding that my first instinct about how to translate each sentence usually does not yield the best translation. This takes a lot of thought!Edit/proofread/review - It's important to review what you've done to make sure it mak…

You're studying what???

That's what most people say when I answer that question the first time around. It's called Translation and Localization Management. No one's really heard of it except the people that actually do it, so don't feel bad. Let's break it down:
Translation - to recreate in the target language a mental construct expressed in the source language.Localization - the process of establishing information within a computer system specific to the operation of particular native languages, local customs and coded character sets.Management - the acts of getting people together to accomplish desired goals and objectives efficiently and effectively. In other words, I'm preparing to manage teams that adapt products and services to languages and cultures around the world. It's part language, part technology, and part business--three things that I love! You can read about my program here.

My courses have titles like: Computer Assisted TranslationTools for Project ManagementAccounti…

I want a family!

Ok, so I've always thought I would get around to having a family--I've always wanted to settle down with a lovely wife and enjoy (parents, stop laughing) raising some kids. But tonight, at a rather late hour, I was watching this video, and I felt stronger than ever before that I want the experiences that come from working to create a family.

The father in the video says, "I try to help THEM have the life THEY want to have, and that makes me happy."

Isn't that what it's all about?


How badly do I want it?

Let's put it this I ponder my life, I consider my accomplishments and endeavors. Education? Check. Ability to find work? Check. Incredible amount of adventures? Check. But for what? What's the point of all this? You could argue lots of things, but I feel deep down in my heart that all of these experiences are designed to help me fulfill my ultimate purpose, which is to participate in all of the joys, hardships, trials, triumphs, and failu…

Top of a roller coaster

You know this feeling?

That is what I'm feeling. Right now. Tomorrow is the big day--the day I leave the place I've lived my whole life (except those two years in Russia).

When it comes to roller coasters, I'm a screamer. There is no greater feeling than to scream your guts out as you hurtle down a drop that has your stomach coming out of your eyeballs. Now THAT is what I call enjoying life.

So I'm taking the same approach with this life changing move. I am SO excited that I can hardly stand it. Basically, tomorrow morning I am just going to get into my car and start living in California. Wahoo!

The future is coming; I've got to catch it if I can!

I'll be tweeting my way across Nevada and all the way to my destination. Granted, this is mostly so that my family can keep track of me, but if you feel so inclined, follow me @alltyler.

Monterey, are you there?

I've been talking about moving for quite a few weeks. Long enough that you're probably ready for me to ACTUALLY move. Well, good news...this is officially the last week I will be living in Utah before the move! Next week will find me calm, cool, and collected in California.

My California cousins swung by my school down there, and they assure me that it is located quite close to the beach. Beaches, actually. With ocean, aquarium, and tide pools by the score! I will be living in a little room built onto the side of a very nice lady's house. The room is furnished, which is a blessing. These furnishings include a queen-size bed, toilet, sink, small refrigerator, microwave, closet and dresser. There is also a private entrance, which will be nice. Technically, I haven't seen any of these things with my own eyes, so I will have to let you know how things really are once I arrive. I'm a little wary of the fact that the toilet is RIGHT next to the bed. At least I won't …

On clouds

I know this sounds strange, but lately I have been preoccupied with clouds. For no particular reason, I've found myself staring at them, amazed at their beauty. I did a 10-minute free write about clouds, and here's what came out!
Clouds change. They bring shade, coolness. They bring rain, snow, sleet, hail, water. They bring life.

Nearer to the ground they conceal. They deceive. They frighten.

Full of majesty they billow. Full of darkness they rage. Full of light they inspire.

They are an annoyance, a blessing. They taunt the thirsty desert. They saturate the soggy valleys.

They excite imagination or reveal the lack thereof.

They come from nowhere.

They vanish with a gust of wind.

They paint the sky with life.

They intimidate.

They block light, they filter it, reflect it, frame it.

They stifle cheeriness. They burn like fire!

Fast Sunday

Today was Fast Sunday. For members of the LDS faith, the first Sunday of the month (today) is a little bit different. We go without food for 24 hours and contribute the money we would have spent on that food to the poor. We call this monthly occurrence Fast Sunday because of the fast and the offerings in which we participate. There is no greater feeling than to contribute to the well being of others.

Another special part of Fast Sunday takes place in our church service. Each Fast Sunday, members of the congregation are invited to come forward (if they feel so inclined) and to share their feelings and convictions about the Savior Jesus Christ, the scriptures, the restoration of the gospel, etc. This part of our service is called Testimony Meeting because it gives people an opportunity to testify to others of their personal relationship with Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ.

Whenever I take the opportunity to fast and contribute to the poor, I feel a great sense of satisfaction. I perso…

The big move

I moved out when I was 18. But it wasn't far.

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Now I am moving away. Farther than before.

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I am super excited! I appreciate variety when it comes to weather, but I must admit that the prospect of living in a city where the temperature is always, well, perfect, has me chomping at the bit.

So if you like beaches, perfect weather, whales, rocky coasts, seafood, and me, please come visit! I will be happy to see you, and I'm sure you won't have a hard time enjoying yourself.

The purpose of the move is to attend school at the Monterey Institute of International Studies. I am extremely excited to study at such a diverse place and to be surrounded by bright, talented people who share my interests. I have always wanted to earn a Master's degree (I think because my dad did), and now that dream is coming true!

More than self...America

There is nothing as exhilarating, refreshing, and inspiring as driving across America. Well do the words of "America the Beautiful" describe the natural wonders found here.

O beautiful for spacious skies
For amber waves of grain
For purple mountain majesties
Above the fruited plain
The beauty of the United States of America extends well beyond its physical features. I love America because of the freedoms I enjoy as a citizen of this country. I love the freedom of expression. I love that people can assemble and openly express their opinions, whatever they may be. I love the fact that people can protest and disagree with the government without fearing for their lives. I love the interstate system! I love the diversity of this country. I love that the fate of this nation ultimately lies in the hands of the people. I love public discourse. I love the cities. I love the suburbs and the neighborhoods.

America has flaws. America has problems. And that's okay. America is ever ch…

My religion...for real.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing, just tired."

"How could you be tired? You haven't even created a world yet!"

It took a second for this statement to register.

"Do you really believe you're going to go around creating planets after you're dead?"

As usual, my coworker had picked the worst possible moment to taunt me about my religion. As I turned to answer the phone all I could manage was a hurried, "Yes, I do." through a half-hearted smile.

If you're reading this and thinking, "Yes? He really does believe that? Those Mormons must be CRAZY!" Then this post is for you. I've been asked this question many times before, and it seems like I usually struggle to find an answer that's simple and accurate. You see, concepts that sound crazy by themselves make a lot more sense when understood in the proper context. The problem is that the answer to that question needs a lot of context! As I drove home from work, all …

How to find happiness

It's true. Reaching outward to serve others is a sure way to be happy. I know that this is a true principle.

Ironically, I am complacent and lack the motivation I need to improve myself when I think more about myself than others. However, when I focus on the happiness of those around me, self-improvement follows naturally. You cannot help becoming more like Christ when you serve others with a glad heart.
When ye are in the service of your fellow beings, ye are only in the service of your God.  -Mosiah 2:17

Life 2.0

Tonight I had a fascinating conversation with my friend David and his lovely wife about the complexities of social media. How necessary is it? How much is too much? What good can be accomplished through it? Do we damage our humanity when the majority of our interactions occur digitally?

This satirical film hints at some implications of society's growing dependence on social media. The advantages of social media and rapidly developing technology are apparent, but there are two sides to every coin.  The effect of social media on one's spirituality interests me more than any other aspect of the phenomenon. This topic is extremely relevant in our world, and I find myself grappling with it almost daily (See Digital Delight | downgrading).

I've started a list of questions to help gauge my use of all kinds of media, particularly the social kind. I'm sharing this list to help articulate my own position. As I continue to search for balance in life, I hope these questions will h…

My first corporate experience

I recently started my new job at 4Life Research. This job differs a lot from other jobs I've held recently. For starters, it's a permanent full-time job. It's located far from where I live, so I get to commute. Best of all, it has benefits!

Giants cont.

Living in between worlds is inefficient and detrimental to one's progress.
Choose a world and commit yourself to it.
Run, Jack, run! Run down the beanstalk as fast as you can!
Leave the riches and the harp. Leave it all and run!
Chop down the beanstalk!
Never plant a magic bean again. Don't even toss one out the widow.

Giants in the sky

Here are some words to ponder from the musical "Into the Woods". This musical is laden with thought-provoking truths. I don't want to say too much about this song, but it opened up a whole new world to me today as I listened to it. I considered the excitement that often comes when straying from a path I know. Such detours often lead to fun and excitement, but there is usually some kind of danger involved...perhaps spiritual danger, more often than not. As you listen, consider the feelings you experience when you want more than you should, and you try to take it. Consider the consequences of straying from the boundaries that keep us safe. Consider how nice it is to return to safe paths and to experience the accompanying relief. And consider the part of you that longs for those forbidden paths...the part of you that yearns to live "in between" worlds.
Context: Jack (of the tale Jack and the Beanstalk) is reflecting here on the consequences of his actions. He clim…

Final finals week

I should be studying for finals. Technically, I have been studying for finals a lot today, and this is a study break. But I took a second to make this video combining two of my favorite things--Google and my dream post-graduation trip.

Happiness is like...

The words to a song I used to know
but can’t quite seem to remember

My lips closing around an empty fork
when I expected a bite of spaghetti

The fleeting relief of a summer breeze
that stops before it starts

Knowing exactly what paragraph I should have read
while staring blankly at a test question

Being sure I recognize a person I see
but not remembering how I know them

The feeling of knowing right where I am
but being lost all the same

Losing an argument
and not admitting it to myself

Happiness is like all these things
but it’s hard to say what it really is
for sure
This is just a little ditty that came to me as I was driving home tonight.

Life as an interpreter?

Talking to a professor today, I discovered a potential opportunity in a field I formerly considered. At the time, I didn't like the idea of a freelance lifestyle. Truth be told, I still don't, but it might not be as bad as I thought. Plus, I'd get to do something that I love and that fascinates me.

A very few is all you need

A few thoughts of others about friends:

"Be courteous to all, but intimate with a few, and let those few be well tried before you give them your confidence. True friendship is a plant of slow growth, and must undergo and withstand the shocks of adversity before it is entitled to the appellation." - George Washington
"True friends will be there even if you refuse to talk to them because they know deep down inside you can't stand the silence." - Unknown
"My mother used to say that there are no strangers, only friends you haven't met yet. She's now in a maximum security twilight home in Australia." - Dame Edna Everage
I'm learning a lot lately about friendship. As I've thought about the friendships that bring me the most happiness and humanity, I've realized that they are the ones based on mutual trust, need, interests, and care. Most of my life, I've believed in the principle Dame's mother taught--that I should try to make every…

Waking up the world with music

A young musician sets out to get the sun up and wake up the world by playing his violin. Produced and directed by Filmed on location in Eagle Mountain, Utah.
Violinist: Tyler Smith -
Cinematographer: Ben Thompson -

Music: MONTI: Czardas

So begins the waiting

Today I found out that I have been put on the wait list for acceptance into BYU's MPA program for next Fall. While this is better than flat out rejection, it's pretty much the same thing unless the people ahead of me change their minds.

So, what will I be doing while I wait?
Apply for every job I can discoverKeep waiting to hear back from the other program I applied toWait with the small hope that some people decide not to matriculate Finish out my last semester with an academic bang This is an exciting time, and I can't wait to see where I'll end up in the next couple of years!

Variations on a Theme by Thomas Tallis

Here's a post from my old blog that was focused on music. 
Originally posted on December 22, 2009

This song is beautiful, and it works for me as a musical allegory of God’s plan for the happiness and eventual salvation of His children.
The score includes parts for two string orchestras and a quartet. The song begins with a lengthy and nebulous introduction. Think of it as the creation, think of it as a description of the eternal realms of pre-mortal life, think of it as what you will. Think of it perhaps as an overture to our mortal experiences on Earth. Or maybe these are the sounds that accompanied God’s explanation of the plan, coming to a climax as He explained the offering of His Son as our Savior (starting right around 3:05). If I had to pick a moment that describes when we accepted the plan, it would be the phrases beginning at 4:00. At 4:10 we begin our entrance into mortal life, complete with its struggles. The next section features themes presented by the second, smaller orc…

Tyler Smith | What's in a name?

Your name identifies you to the world. Unless your name happens to be Tyler Smith. I think I take a close second after John Smith in the contest of most common names in America. I think we Tyler's could constitute our own demographic in important surveys.

Several people have found their way onto this website by performing a search for "tyler smith meaning." Either they know a Tyler Smith that is difficult to understand or they are working on a high school writing assignment for which they are required to report on the meaning of their name. Well, Tyler's, I have some bad news for you. While completing that exact assignment in the 10th grade, I discovered the sad truth that our name is devoid of any real, intellectual meaning or cool linguistic symbolism. Let me explain:

"Tyler" comes from "tiler" which (brace yourselves) is someone who lays tile.

"Smith" doesn't really come from anything that I know of. It's just kind of the defa…

Digital delight | downgrading

The Experience

Feast your eyes on this beauty. This is the smart phone I bought last week...and that I'm returning to the store tomorrow. Don't get me wrong; the time I spent with this phone was exhilarating, productive, and just plain awesome. It worked (for the most part) like a charm and allowed me to experience the convenience of having my calendars, email, text messaging, internet, etc., etc., etc. in the palm of my hand.

So why on earth am I returning this fabulous product?

No, really? I happen to be a heavy user of Google applications, and rely on them to help organize my life. This was an opportunity to have it all in the palm of my hand. Now I'm giving it up and returning to my plain, old cell phone.

The problem is that I loved it too much! I've been known to enjoy chatting in Gmail, but having Gmail chat in my hand 24/7 was just too much! I couldn't resist starting up conversations with whomever happened to be online every time I glanced at my phone. I…

Thoughts from Sunday school

As we discussed the Savior's Atonement today in church, I couldn't help but think how incredibly lonely the Savior must have been during the agony of His suffering. As Elder Holland testified, "Because Jesus walked such a long, lonely path utterly alone, we do not have to do so." I am grateful for Jesus Christ. I hope that we all will seek to follow Him more earnestly and partake of the peace He offers.


The night was deep and the silence was thick
As the Maker of man and the Builder of worlds
Tread onward alone and fell on His face
To fulfill God's will and to bring about Grace.

But Sunday will come! Sunday will come!
The thought lends hope to the downcast and weary.
The day dawn will break and the darkest of nights
Will end with the birth of renewing light.

The lightning raged in a billowing surge,
And shadows of crosses were cast on the ground.
"Oh, Father above forsakest Thou me?"
Cried the loneliest man as He hung on a tree.

But Sunday will co…

Make my Valentine's Day

It took me until 11:00 this morning to figure out that today is Valentine's Day. Honestly, I thought it was yesterday. I don't know how I missed that one. At any rate, a most pleasant turn of events redeemed me from this faux pas. My friend invited me to a Valentine's Day dinner where I met some wonderful people. I was reminded again just how awesome it is to make someone's day. In this case, others made my day.

Having your day made is a blessing. Most of the time, it doesn't take much, and even the smallest kindnesses seem grand when it happens. So, on a holiday when sweethearts swoon and singles sulk, I found myself surrounded by excellent and friendly people, thoroughly happy and thrilled with the goodness of life. I'm grateful for people that keep the world turning with their smiles.

The best part about having your day made is the desire that follows to turn around and do the same for others.

Brother Up In Heaven

Here's a post from my old blog that was focused on music. 
Originally posted on December 17, 2009

This has long been one of my very favorite songs because of the emotions it invokes. For me, this song works on a couple of levels. I think the most common one is of losing a close friend or brother in war or otherwise. I first heard this song as a teenager and had never lost a brother or a friend to death. So for me this song became an anthem of friendship. I often think of this song when I part ways with very close friends. This song really captures the loneliness and longing that accompany such a parting, whatever the circumstances (I still see his shadow; his laugh lingers on/When I dream we are back together; when I wake he is gone). Also, it espouses the hope that we will be reunited with our loved ones someday.

In addition to lovely sentiments, this song poses a thought provoking question: “Why do men with so much hate destroy what they cannot create while we all stand by?”


The changing meaning of the word "friend"

Here's a post from my old blog that was focused on spiritual themes. 
Originally posted on February 4, 2010

I advocate the use of technology for the betterment of mankind, the spreading of knowledge, and the development of the world. Along with the blessings of the digital age come the much discussed consequences of living in a cyber world. I wrote this poem to reflect my current observations and conclusions about the role of social media in our society. We live in a world where finding the balance grows increasingly difficult, and attempts to do so often result in situations like this.
Facebook, texting, Twitter, and phone I relied on your service and now I'm alone. Old friends are near, new friends abound, But dearths of real friends is all I have found. Surrounded by people whose smiles seem real, Yet talking to neighbors has lost its appeal. I'm surrounded by people on every side. I want to add them to tickle my pride. The more I have followers the more the glory. The m…