We would rather be ruined than changed;
We would rather die in our dread
Than climb the cross of the moment
And let our illusions die.

~W.H. Auden

This truth blocks my progress more than any external factor I have ever experienced in my life.

I want this idea to always be before me so that I remember to push through the hard times. 

Why do we fear change?
Why do we resist reaching our potential?
Why are we really our own worst enemy?
Why are our "illusions" so precious to us?
Why do we procrastinate the best in order to have the good?


  1. That's an excellent poem. I find myself wondering about these things all the time, but I don't have many answers besides the fact that it's human nature to feel apprehensive about change and to procrastinate. They're just sad, eternal truths and that's why we have to put off the natural man.

    I also thought of a Goethe quote that I ponder often:

    "I have come to the frightening conclusion that I am the decisive element. It is my personal approach that creates the climate. It is my daily mood that makes the weather. I possess tremendous power to make life miserable or joyous. I can be a tool of torture or an instrument of inspiration; I can humiliate or humor, hurt or heal. In all situations, it is my response that decides whether a crisis is escalated or de-escalated, and a person humanized or de-humanized. If we treat people as they are, we make them worse. If we treat people as they ought to be, we help them become what they are capable of becoming."

    That last part doesn't really apply, but I think the idea that we are the decisive element does quite well. It's for this reason that we're our own worst enemy. But it's also for this same reason that we can be our best ally.

  2. I think the biggest issue with change is fear. We let our fear for the worst case senario become greater then our hope for the best case senario. And I think there is one person in particular who trys very hard to keep it that way. We are all sons and daughters of a wonderful Heavenly Father who wants what's best for us, but we allow self doubt to set in and we begin to question our own self worth. Through drawing closer to our Savior and Heavenly Father we come to know better our own potential, and we better understand His plan for us and the changes necesary to get there become less scary. And once we understand all of this it makes the risks that come with change more then worth it. Because if you never try then you never get anyway :)

  3. Wow this poem really made me think about a lot of things. I think the thing that impressed me most was the imagery of the cross. What does it mean for us to climb the cross of the moment?
    It first made me think about Christ's moment of climbing the cross. What was it like for him? What kind of fear might he have felt, and overcome? How did he gain the perspective that he needed to go through with it?
    He said that we should take up our cross and follow him. Only then can we be changed. But it is a scary and dreadful thing to climb the cross. That kind of fear can be paralyzing, to the point that we would rather be ruined than changed. Sometimes also dread changing. We don't want to be changed, because of the false way that we see the world around us, and because of our pride. But if we can remember that there is a plan for us, and that it will turn out right, if we can seek the inspiration and comfort that comes through the Spirit, then we can step forward with faith. Only then will our illusions die, letting us see clearly. When we give full trust then we can be comforted.


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